Just A Couple More Months!

I was looking through my blog a month ago at photos of my pregnant belly. I was surprised I posted about once a month or more back then and got kinda sad because blogging isn't cool anymore and it's my only journal source. I was looking at my belly because we've got another little girl coming on December 21st! And I couldn't help but notice how much bigger I am this time. And that made me a little sad too even though everyone told me that's usually how it works. Oh well.

We found out April 18th. I only know that because I was on jury duty for a rape case. It was pretty close to the week from hell. I felt lousy and I had to hear about all the dumb and gross things college students do. I wasn't allowed to talk to anyone about it because they don't want other people swaying a jury members opinion. We'd have to be there at 9ish and wouldn't get done until 5-6ish. But it was pretty interesting learning how the whole process works. A witness gets up and is questioned by both sets of lawyers, sometimes multiple times. After they're done, the jury can write a question down and it's discussed by the judge and lawyers and if it's approved they'll ask it. Although several of my questions weren't asked. Apparently they have a list of things they can question about and if they feel it's not relevant to the witness, they won't ask it. Although, it wasn't just me that asked certain questions and all of us felt they were relevant. Every time they needed to discuss something we'd be excused to our little conference room. They gave us lots of snacks and it was fun to get to know everyone on the jury. Although we weren't ever allowed to talk about the case with each other because two of us were alternate jurors. They didn't want the alternates to sway the real juror's opinions either. And on Friday, I was both relieved and disappointed to find out I was an alternate. I was supposed to do a photo shoot that night for true aggie night and I got done right when I needed to be there. But I couldn't make myself go and let my boss down. The thought of watching strangers makeout in front of each other after listening to the case all week was too much for my mental state.

One of the jurors is a really sweet older woman and we exchanged numbers so if either of us got dismissed we could find out what happened. I later saw her at my nephews baptism. I feel like all of the jurors are somehow long lost best friends because of what we went through together. I doubt most of them feel the same but it was cool to see a group of completely different people come together to do our civic duty and to laugh be scared together. And ultimately to determine a mans fate together.

One of my favorite parts were how dramatic and TV-like the final arguments were. I don't remember exactly what was said but the defense had a story about a bird being either dead or alive in a mans hand and how the bird was his defendant "and ladies and gentlemen of the jury, like this bird, this case...  is... in your hands."  Then the prosecution made another animal correlation about stinky fish. "Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, I smell a lot of stinky fish, but don't let the stink distract you from the trail." I was barely holding it together. No wonder I got dismissed.

Anyway, I'd kinda forgotten about jury duty until today. The Wednesday morning of jury duty I was feeling a little off so I took a test and it was positive! I hadn't been on birth control for a little over a year and we were starting to wonder if we should go to the doctor. Last time it took awhile too and I think birth control can really messes a person up. I told Jake obviously and also one of the jurors in our bathroom stalls before the case started. Ha! I was too excited and blurted it out.

I hadn't taken a single preg photo this go around. So, as per usual, here's a computer one. I'm 31 weeks. And sadly, I had to check the app on my phone to know that.

Unlike last time when I never bothered wearing maternity pants, I started wearing stretchy pregnancy pants around 8 weeks. I got a nasty barfing virus the week after jury duty and my guts couldn't stand any sort of pressure and it just stayed that way. I kinda thought it was twins at first and a few people, including the dr, suggested it too but the ultrasound just said one. I've had a weird relationship with sugar. If I ate it at the beginning, my heart felt like it would pound out of my chest. But now, if I don't have it, my limbs feel tingly and numb until I eat some. I was worried I had diabetes or something but my sugar test came back fine. I've been a complete crazy person this time too. I forget everything, get really sensitive, and worry about everything. It doesn't help when things like Ebola and terror threats at USU are happening.

This time around, the thing that has freaked me out the most is having two kids. And will I love this baby as much as I love Abby. And will they love each other. The rational side of me knows it'll be fine when she comes.  But the crazy side still thinks about it.

Sorry for the word-heavy post. I'd like to promise more pics in future posts but I'm barely functional so awesome pics aren't in my near future :)